Poems

This section contains poems with very dark topics and graphic details. Please be warned. These poems are also not in order of the times they were made.

Bloom

I pass by a field of flowers on a early spring morning
I stop and stare at them, thinking about you
I decide to pick one up that reminds me most of you
I cherish it and hold it close to me
I take it home and put it in a special place on my windowsill
I watch it flourish and bloom
Just as beautiful as you.

Adore

I love you
I love how you sound
I love how kind you are
I love how pretty you are
I love how smart you are
I love how brave you are
I love how strong you are
I love how caring you are
I love every inch of your skin
I love all of you
There isn’t a single thing about you that I don’t love

Melt

Everything you do it adorable
It makes me melt
The way you giggle
It makes me melt
The way you get all flustered sometimes
It makes me melt
The way you express how you feel
It makes me melt
It makes my heart melt most of all though.

Physical

I want you to hold me
Hold me close to you, please
Maybe even a kiss or two
That’s all I ask, it’s all I want
What’s your love language?

Letter

I’d keep a letter
For every month until we get married
And on the night of our honeymoon
I would show you all of them
It would show how my love for you never changed or faded
How over time it grew even stronger
I can’t wait for you to read all the wonderful things I wrote
It’ll still never equal to the love I feel for you though

Bittersweet

As nostalgic tales of the past cloud my mind
I think of a memory
one to cherish for all time
Crying once again
longing for the past
Never to reach
the falling night sky
Maybe I’ll give it all up
Take a new route and start a new life
But without those memories of childhood
What is there to have innocence of?
Forever chasing after the one long gone


So I’ll sleep some more and wish I’ll wake up within the tomorrows past.

Smile

Sometimes I smile,
And I don’t know why

When I don’t feel anything,
I’ll still smile

And when I feel loneliness,
I’ll smile

Even if I don’t want to smile
I will regardless


When I see you
I’ll smile extra wide to show you I’m okay

But I have nothing to smile about
Nothing is happy anymore.

Bad day

I wake up today
Yet you don’t say good morning
I go to school
You don’t say anything at all
I go home
No answer from you
I do homework and read a book
You won’t respond
I eat dinner
And you say nothing
I go to sleep
You don’t say goodnight.
I dream of you
You haven’t said a word since you left.


I wake up
I go to school
I go home
I grab a knife
I smile and say a few words
“I’ll be with you at last, my dear.”

Ame

It’s raining again
I want it to stop
My curtains are closed
I like it that way.
The sun is nice
But it’s always so rainy here
The rain drops fall and dance in the air
And hit the ground hard
I feel sad


It’ll rain forever.

Unnamed 2

I’ll do your every command
Id die for you
Id harm myself if you asked me to
Anything, I’m your slave
I want you, I need you, I crave you
I need to breathe the same air as you
I need to be one with you
I need you so badly
Please never leave me
You’re so amazing

Unnamed

I look frantically for something
Something to satisfy the urges
The marks coating my white sweater in red
More, more more,
This isn’t enough, I need more
Blood trickles down from my wrists
Staining everything in red
It feels so good
Why am I doing this
Was it not enough
Put my thoughts to rest please
But I can’t help it
The blood is so tasty
I need more.
Feeling for my neck
I take a risk
And slice it right open

Lost

Friendships don’t always last
One left in the past
Maybe I should be silent
Maybe I should forget
But would you do the same?
Leave me behind without a single shame
Forget my name,,
Everything I’ve done maybe wasn’t worth it anyways
Maybe you should lose me
Maybe it would be better if you just left
I’m sorry I couldn’t be better and just disappeared
My heart aches
My head hurts
I’m confused and lost

Maybe you’ve lost me too.

Murder

Gripping the handle of a knife, a blade meets my chest
It slices a wound open, blood oozing out of it
encapsulating my emotions with fear, frantically trying to escape

Deafening cries admit from my mouth, filling the room
rapidly to be silenced with a grabbing motion at my throat
choking on the emptiness, hurling up stomach contents

Pain unbearable, petrified and afraid
today I will die, though i never expected it

Worth

The color of a rose, red

But do you know how they got like that?
It was from a person, their blood staining the roses
a ruby, shimmering red
eventually, there was no blood left in that person and their body went cold
so sometimes, you'll still find roses blank with white
because the person was never enough

Cotton candy skies

Skies of clouds, covered in gray
Rain dripping and splashing on the ground, pitter patter
A storm on its way today, what oh what will I do if i get caught in this rain?
But might I worry I know it'll all be okay
With your help, the skies will clear away
To a sunset with a hue of pink and blue
Like a yummy cotton candy treat
It's all worth it as long as I'm with you.

Witness

I saw the remains of a accident
The end of ends for someone
I could go home, and watch TV
But the memory of such a thing will haunt me
For I was just a kid, entranced with dreams
Dreams filled with horror and misty futures
Whether it be a rope, a gun, a knife, or even my own hands
The fate held me tightly, and would not let go
Even if it was all a nightmare, when I awoke i was safe
The foreboding pain my body had felt would not cease
When it got to the point I couldn't have wanted it
Nothing changed, the ache remained
To witness your own death so many times
A tragedy is bound to occur.

Disturbed

Slicing at me, a knife cuts deep
Fear instilled, hurling up stomach contents
Breaking down the matters of my brain, reduce the value to zero
Removing my organs from inside of my body
Intestines squishy and warm, like pasta
Lastly the heart, carved a mark into it
I've made quite the mess.

Fault

I know it now, I know it true
It is all my fault, this is my punishment
and this punishment wont cease till I die.
I know all of them are watching too, through the eyes of someone who receives a poem.
All the words I write are bitter, to those I love dearly
I know this is my punishment, I'm forced to watch you all move on
now to live much happier lives, while i sit here and get what i deserve
I'm always the one to blame.

Piercing

Say what you may
A bite worse than a bark
But you can't realize
What you say hurts my heart.

Lying

Promises, promises.
No matter how many I make
Mirrors, mirrors.
The reflection will break
Promises, Promises.
Never to keep
Promises, Promises.
Forever asleep.

Haunted

Haunted by a memory
Like a ghost who glares
At the back of my neck
Sharp like a knife
Like a weight heavy
Breaking my back
With the burden I carry
If maybe there was a way
Where I could wash away this memory
I’d take it at a heartbeat
I don’t want this memory to stay
So maybe I’ll try burying it out in the back garden.

Maybe

Maybe I’ll smile today
Maybe today I’ll take a shower
Maybe today I will adopt a cat
Maybe today I’ll make some money
Maybe today I might give into urges
Maybe today I’ll finally be happy
Maybe today I will die
Maybe today it’ll finally end
Maybe today I’ll reach out for help
Maybe today

Imitation

What are imitations?
Is an imitation a mime?

Is imitation a clown?
Is imitation a reflection in the mirror?

Did you know?
You’re an imitation too.

Sorrow

Filled with grief
A cut too deep
Through my heart
One colder than ice
I vanished away
Without a trace

Rainy day

It’s raining again
Drops hit my windowsill
As I look out down to the street
A raindrop hits my fingertip
As I stare at it another one soon joins in
But it is not from the clouds
From my eyes is where it came
Mixing in with the raindrop
And soon another follows, and one more, and another
Soon like the clouds I rain down too
And bury my head in my knees
As the rain pours down on me.

Reality

I’m sick, really sick
And there is no cure for my illness
Medicine can help, but it can’t end the pain
Only a temporary relief

I have to come to realize
That there is no more hope for me anymore
But I have dreams, dreams I want to achieve
What am I meant to do when all I can do here is lay in bed?

We all die someday
But I know that no matter how many times I try to
Nothing changes, I don’t die
Am I cursed?

Why am I forced to constantly stay here?
The darkness surrounds me, and all I’m able to do is follow a blind light
Luring me into a false sense of hope

Sometimes I feel happy, sometimes it’s fun
I always am forced to remember the happiness of the past
Haunting me like a vengeful spirit
And the weight is killing me.

Nothing can stop this, can it?
This feeling inside of me grows more and more each time
How could I ever deal with this?
Why should I keep going on?

My words are sharp like a knife slicing deep
Blood flowing out as if a river of hatred
I should just be able to withstand the torment
To be able to handle the cuts

But each time I’m hit, it repeats over
I cover my ears and try to hide
And even when I try to face it
It’s always the same outcome

Can I ever forgive myself for this?

Bus-chan inspired poem

Guilt weighs me down
It jabs at me like a knife at my throat
I could just swallow all the pain of the past
And try and bear it, to smile again
For acting like I enjoy living, is probably the best.
But even if I try and make myself believe
Nothing will change the burden I am to others
I wish to disappear, to be away from here
But I know there's only way I can do that
So I'll say my farewells, and grab the blade.

Rock inspired poem

Strum of a guitar
A wrong note, and another, and another
Why can't I get it right?
I wish I could be as good as her
But behind is where I always stand at

When I think about it though
It's not so bad
Maybe she has the same struggles as me
I'm proud of my progress
I'll work even harder for the future.

Ima

Ocean waves crash into a wall
The sounds they make, my name they call
It repeats, beckoning me to the sea
If I go ahead with this, will I finally be free?
Life was only good a long time ago
But now it'll never be good again, I know
I can't stop now, theres no way to go
And so the crashing waves, over my body they will flow.

Endpoint

Alone in a field of flowers
I can't even remember how many years i've been here
By myself with nothing but my fears
No one to wipe away my tears
"I wish to disappear" but nothing changed
The choice I made was severe
Now I gaze up at the stars
Even if I tried to reach the, they're still too far
Regret stabs at a faded scar
A reminder of my mistake
Now I'm forever stuck in this place
With no escape

Reliable

Everyone always lets me down
They never have time for me
People always make promises of something just to back out the last second
It's not a one time thing, its reoccurring
I spend my whole day waiting for it
But as the hours pass my hope begins to dim
No matter how many times I call and text
My messages ring on deaf ears
It's always the same apologies each time
But no amount of words will bring back that time I spent
Waiting on something that would never arrive.

Section 2

The links below lead to random writings I've done.

Vocaloid lyrics (My own TL's)

Harmony Within a Melody (TUYU fanfic)

TUYU lyrics (My own TL's)